Title says it all. I'm feeling pretty run down this week. I can't help but feel like I have some horrible disease that robs me of all my energy. I'm thinking non-Hodgkins lymphoma; nursing school and this disease seem to have the same set of signs and symptoms.
I took a theory test today that made me feel like someone punched me in the gut. The endocrine system. It was a real bear. Study, study, study... and then to get socked with a test this hard just sucks. A ton. I dunno if I even passed it. I'd have to fail pretty horribly to have my average go below the required 75% although after taking this exam I'm thinking that's a distinct possibility. I felt the same way about the liver/immune system test and I ended up with a 76% on it. In nursing school, a 76% is cause for celebration, so don't confuse that statement with me bitching.
Tons of diseases on this test. Hyperthyroidism, hypthyroidism, hyperparathyroidism, hypoparathyroidism, Addison's disease, Cushing's syndrome, diabetes insipidus, syndrome of inappropriate secretion of anti-diuretic hormone (SIADH), chronic renal failure, hyperglycemic hyperosmotic non-ketonic coma (HHNK), and diabetic ketoacidosis (DKA). Wow. That's a ton of diseases, syndromes, and other stuff that can go wrong. I'll guarantee you that each one of those was well represented on the test. I'll also guarantee that each one of those diseases messes with multiple lab values, electrolytes, and all sorts of other fun chemicals and I found it nearly impossible to memorize it all.
I got back my five page research paper on C.Difficile and I got a 90%. Would have had a 100% if I would have cited five sources instead of four. I'm such a dumb ass. I could have used that 10%!
So with a research paper with such a good grade why am I freaked out about these tests? Simple. Every project, paper, and care plan you do and get a good grade on (or a crappy grade) does not get counted in your grade until you average a 75% on the tests alone. You get a 76% final test average (all four unit exams plus the final) and all this other stuff gets calculated in pushing the majority of students to a 'B', even an 'A' if your test average is a bit higher.
I'm also taking two online classes to fulfill my general education requirements: speech and sociology. I hate to say it, but in comparison to Advanced Nursing, these classes are a complete and utter joke. Sociology I spend approximately 20 minutes on weekly and speech class I typically show up for once every two weeks, deliver a speech, and then leave. Does this adversely affect my grade? Hell yeah it does, but who cares... With minimal effort I can easily get a 'B' in these classes and at this point, I'm just not willing to put in the effort for an 'A'. Oh, and even more great news; I'm supposed to deliver a speech tomorrow, but I had to call out.
I found out two days ago my mom needs to get a colonoscopy in the morning. What's this mean? No time tomorrow for my care plan, so I gotta do it all tonight, get up early, and drive 50 miles away to take my mom to and from her colonscopy, and then drive another 50 miles back to sit in clinical with a patient who will more than likely be discharged by the time I get there. Not to mention she had a gallbladder removal on Thursday that totally jacked up my schedule.
This sucks. It just does. There's so much I gotta do and tons of shitty time limitations. Not to mention I need 13 online tests done and a teaching project. Sometimes I wish I could just take a time-out and continue with my education a little later.
There's a problem with that though. The way I figure it, there will always be some family emergency, some function with my son, or some other thing that's always going to be getting in the way. Might as well get it done now because the "catastrophes" that always seem to happen always seem to happen during nursing school. Not just during nursing school... always during critical weeks. I sometimes think I was born with shitty luck.
Tomorrow is my clinical with the instructor that didn't pass me on skills check. She's very detail oriented and I'm finding that my care plans need to really be up to par for her. I feel like they've been fairly lenient on us this semester (until now) because I really only have two or three more care plans for the entire RN program.
Until I write again, I'm signing off exhausted and overwhelmed... And not even thinking about a Bachelor's (for at least another six months after graduation, that is.)